Current mood: blessed
I sit here, on the eve of my 30th birthday I can't help but reflect on how that makes me feel. You would think that I would be down, depressed, and saddened about getting "older" like most people (mostly girls) my age. I probably would be if I didn't have so much to be happy and positive about.
Turning 30 is not as big a deal as I thought it would be. I always envisioned turning "over the hill" as a gloomy depressing birthday but I don't feel that way at all. The fact that I don't feel that way had me thinking ...why??? What is the secret? Why doesn't it bother me like it does so many other people?
The HUGE reason why it doesn't bother me, is the fact that over the years I have changed and matured so much. My priorities in life are completely different than they were 10 years ago... or even 5 years ago. I am the happiest I have ever been in my life, right at this moment. I have a wonderful husband, beautiful daughter, another little one on the way, a warm home and great family and friends. I couldn't ask for anything more to enrich my life. Although my life is not perfect, its pretty darn close in my opinion.
I now understand the phrase, "you are only as old as you feel". I don't feel old one bit. My body still works the way it always has, my skin is not all shrivaled up, and I have yet to find a grey hair on my head. Infact as I look in the mirror I don't see an old person staring back at me at all. Though I have aged somewhat, I still pretty much look the same way I always have. But all that is physical and in the long run meaningless. My heart and soul feels young and thats all that truly matters. 30 is just a number to me. It is not going to make or break me. Turning 30 is no big deal unless you make it one. If you get all wrapped up in numbers/age and let that dictate how you feel of course you are going to feel old and down. I don't see myself as getting older, I see myself as taking a new step into a new phase in my life. I don't wish to relive my 20s or remain 20 forever... that would be boring. I've lived it, I've done it, I've moved on. Life is all about new experiences and enjoying all that you have. The one person who has taught me that is my daughter, Mia.
Ever since Mia was born she has brought me nothing but happiness and joy. She is my fountain of youth and with her around, I will never grow "too old". She makes me laugh, she does cute things to show me she loves me and she keeps me young. I can't even count the number of times shes bouncing on her bed and I can't help but bounce along with her. We get silly together and even run around the house chasing each other while screaming and laughing. When music is playing we dance where ever we are, whether it be in the middle of the kitchen, living room, or laundry room. Sometimes we dance to no music at all just because. She keeps me young at heart and that is worth more than any plastic surgery or cosmetic age reversing wonder cream could ever do for me! She has shown me what life is truly all about and what is important. I live every day to the fullest because of her, and enjoy every second of it. I no longer take time in vain because I know it passes to quickly.
So yep, I am turning the big 30! I am looking forward to what this new decade will hold for me. I feel good, happy and young. I welcome being 30. So you ask, how does turning 30 make me feel? It makes me feel GREAT.... just don't ask me again when I hit 40 I might change my answer! haha
Happy 30th Birthday to ME!
