Current mood: optimistic
Everyday is a struggle with Mia lately and I feel that my recent blogs have really been focusing on all the negative things regarding her terrible 2's. Therefore, I only felt it right to at least write about a good day I had. Well semi-good day.
She has accepted Alex into our lives, and really has no hard feelings towards him. Infact she LOVES him to death... already! She always gives him little kisses on his head, tries to share her food and toys with him, wants to always hold his hand, and if I am nursing him she wants to hold his foot. She tries to comfort him when hes crying, she always lets me know when hes crying and even tries to give him his pacifier. She is a great big sister to him and I have no complaints there. The only resentment she shows is toward us. She doesn't want us ... or more like whoever is with her at the time... to hold Alex or tend to him. She throws the biggest loudest tantrum ever and there is nothing that can be done to snap her out of it... and believe me, we tried. So it just comes down to ignoring her and letting her cry or throw her in her room to cry it out. I hate doing that but I have no other choice.
Now that Adrian is back to work and things are starting to go back to "normal" of how our daily lives will be, I have been soloing the kids ALOT. Especially in the morning. Thats when its the worst between Mia, Alex and myself. Since I have been going back to my old ways of taking care Mia in the morning and going back to our old routine, she has really been a handful when Alex needs me. Yesterday she blew up so bad and the day before even worse! But today was different...
She was actually alright. She did whine a bit at first when I had to get Alex so he could eat and protested a bit but soon she got over it and actually sat next to me while I nursed Alex. Of course I thought ahead a bit and loaded her up with Cheerios in her favorite "Hello Kitty" container, had Elmo on TV and gave her a big cup of milk (her favorite). It sort of eased things a bit. She actually let me feed him and hold him for awhile. Most of the morning went VERY well and I was very pleased. I know every morning won't be like that and I will still have some pretty bad days (more bad than good for now) but at least it gives me some hope.
The rest of the day went ok, Adrian took her out to buy some groceries and Alex slept most of the day so I didn't have to battle with Mia much. She was pretty good in the evening too when she came home from the store and Alex was up. Again she tried to interact with him, gave him kisses, held his hand and rubbed his tummy. She didn't seem to mind much that he was there and I was giving him attention.
So who knows what tomorrow will be like, all I can hope is that she learns to accept our new life fast and we can get a good solid routine going.
